Sometimes it's not the little things that matter

Sometimes when the small things in life stack up I tend to think I am failing on many different levels. Then something happens to remind me I have achieved things on a greater level than if my check book balances. Family is so very important to me and it's good to hear that when it comes to my family I'm at least doing something right there. I’ll go ahead and pat my back. Noah is thriving and his teacher thinks he is a "Gem". Dezi is a joy to me. Jeremy has my full support to go back to school for his BA. I gave birth to my beautiful niece. These are the things that r important. I know I get caught up in all the day to day life shit that I forget what life is really about. I know there are major decisions and adjustments that need to be made. I know it won't be easy to face my fears and the truth but I am strong and I can do it. I'm not a bad person. I need to stop thinking what will people think and just do what I think is best. Today has been a ruff day. But I have the power to change that. Boy, did I need to give myself this little pep talk!!